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Monday, April 9, 2012

About Honesty & Friends

Bismillahirahmnairahim...

Once upon a time, mum asked: Mahirah , don’t you have any close friends now?. Knowing that I have a bunch from my high school days and another lovely bunch from my bachelor study days, she expect that I would also have another bunch now.

Last weekend, my graphic instructor asked me to sms other peers for the cancellation of class and I said: I got no numbers la sir. Yeap. I am kind of hard and slow to believe in other people. I like to observe people, how they speak, walk and doing other things first before approaching them.

Why am I talking (typing la) about these things?

Finding the honest people for you to deal with everyday is not that easy as buying stuff at the shop. Being a postgraduate student is quite different from the life as a bachelor degree student. Observing the freshies/ juniors reminded me much of those days. Walking in a group of people to anywhere they go, with the same group of peers, talking quite about the same issues and topics, knowing where to have your lunch date with your peers...the list goes on.

Now, it is good enough if you managed to get to know and be close to a few number of friends. Just please do not expect to hang out and ask your friends to tag you along anywhere you are going. Most of my classmates are either working or married so I know that they would sure have other responsibilities outside class hours.

The closest and the most super friend I have now (and always, Insya Allah) is Miss Nurul Zulaiha a.k.a Zulblack Widow. I have known her for about 4 years now since our training with the CSC IIUM during my degree days. Although we are trained in a different support group (I am with the Guidance & she’s with the PEERS), our common meeting place, the CSC office made it possible for us to discover that we have the potential to be best friends. The real friend.

Not just a friend who would be with me only when I am laughing but also that I know that she will always be there to lend a shoulder to cry on. She does not only praise and support, but also gave the best commentary and critiques for me to improve myself. The best thing is that she always took me to the IIUM.FM radio studio/ conti. There, I get to know with few other great people from the Communication Department while I have the chance observing how a radio station functions.

Zulmaryan a.k.a Yan...spotted her first at the Finance Department during our Masters Registration day last September. It is great to know that we met again in the Statistic subject and later we became group mate for class assignments with another friend, Raihan. This semester Alhamdulillah we are in the same class again for Qualitative Research subject. Being with a different specialization (Yan & Raihan: Curriculum while me Psychology), I shall use the fullest chance given to get to know them better (esp. Yan...maaf aku selalu je kan sakat kau =) ).

There’s another great friend, cik Syahidah Adnan. My roommate during my degree days. Even though we are now miles apart (Syida, kau kerja kat Penang je pun), I will sometimes try my best to keep in touch with her either through sms or Facebook. Now, whenever I visited any exhibition held at the Architecture Department, my thoughts are always with her as that particularly lovely friend of mine always took me to exhibitions and once to her working studio.

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(Outside the circle of classmate/ friends but still ‘friends’ I guess)

About twice a week, whenever I did not have the mood to make myself a light breakfast of a cup of Milo, I would surely have my morning fuel at the EDU Cafe. The ‘kakak jaga kaunter’ (yet to get to know her name) always charge me with the price of just RM 2 for a place of ‘kuew teaow goreng’ and a cup of ice Milo (don’t ask-hantu of this stuff). I always gave her the look of ‘ha...biar betul kak?’ But smiled with a big thank and praying that ‘Moga murah rezeki dia’. The Milo is the ‘real milo’ (which now priced at about RM 31 every 2 KG pack which me myself nak beli every month pun kena ‘tutup mata’ and grab). Dia jaga kaunter pun senyum je... =).

After paying for the meal, my favourite spot to seat at the cafeteria is the place directly under the fan, the place where ‘makcik cleaners’ always ‘duduk- duduk’ for their rest. Tak kisah pun borak- borak dengan diorang. Best apa. Orang- orang tua ni kata- kata mereka ada hikmat, Insya Allah. Without them, the campus would not be in a pleasant place, right?

The computer man which I sent my laptop for service sometime end of last semester...located at the Engineering Department. Repaired my laptop at a very reasonable price. Being honest with me by saying that as my laptop is still under warranty; I have not to pay hundreds of ringgit for the hardware repair. I only have to pay for the service of sending my laptop to the service centre somewhere in Damansara. The other pc repair store (also in IIUM) awal-awal cakap...ni kalau tukar dah kena RM XXX. Alhamdulillah masih ada repairman yang jujur.

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I am not the kind of person who is easy with words.I am a bit talkative girl (YES) but when it comes to expressing myself I would most of the times goes like ...err..aa...clueless (tak terkata gitu). But then, this semester, a lecturer could spot what I am going to say by just looking at my facial expression. Agree or disagree. Sometimes I am just too scared if my words would hurt other people’s feeling.

Finding a good friend or an honest people is just like looking for a good theory from heaps of journals and publication. Find someone who could make you into a more pious person, Insya Allah. To all my lovely friends out there, even I’ve not stated your names here, thank you so much for everything. Barakallahu fikum.

Allah Knows Best.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Nikmat Dalam Sebuah Ujian & Penantian

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah masih diberi rezeki dan nikmat untuk menghirup udara di bumi ciptaan NYA yang indah. Oh ya... sekarang ini, penulis sedang menikmati cuti pertengahan semester selama seminggu. Insya Allah hingga hujung minggu ini. Tugasan kuliah, persediaan peperiksaan semester sejurus ‘naik’ semester’ membuatkan hampir- hampir tiada istilah ‘cuti’ namun peluang yang diberi untuk bersama-sama keluarga tersayang tidak harus dilepaskan dan dibiarkan berlalu begitu sahaja.

Ujian serangan lelah@ asthma selama hampir 3 hari berturut- turut membuatkan semangat untuk melakukan tugasan sedikit luluh. Saat menghadap ubatan sebanyak 3- 4 jenis membuatkan diri berfikir sejenak “Alhamdulillah aku ada juga ubat untuk di makan kala diuji begini. Masih ada rezeki untuk mendapatkan rawatan terbaik. Juga yang paling penting sokongan yang tidak pernah putus daripada mama dan abah. Masih ada insan di luar sana yang hanya mampu terbaring menahan sakit saat mereka diuji. Malah ada antara anak- anak mereka terpaksa mengalah berhenti persekolahan untuk member peluang kepada ibubapa/ adik beradik yang sedang sakit untuk mendapatkan rawatan...”.

Saat terjaga beberapa ketika saat sedang beradu, ‘berperang’ untuk bernafas, tidak dinafikan perasaan takut menjalar dalam hati. Adakah sempat aku melafazkan taubat kepada Allah SWT? Adakah sudah cukup baktiku pada kedua ibubapa yang tidak pernah putus mendoakan anaknda sulung mereka ini? Kepada satu- satunya adik yang penulis ada...penulis sedar penulis bukanlah seorang kakak yang sempurna. Abah pernah memberi tahu bahawa ketika lahir tidak menangis. Malah tersenyum- tersengih. Tetapi, airmataku kini gugur juga ‘mengalah’ dengan kesakitan cubaan untuk bernafas.

Cuba melukis untuk mengalihkan perhatian. Menonton ‘series’ The Mentalist dan juga animasi Puss in Boots bersama-sama mama dan abah di laptop...ketawa kami bersama melegakan resah di dada. Laughter the best medicine, perhaps?

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Umur penulis Insya Allah tahun ini akan menginjak usia 25 tahun. Dan persoalan yang pasti tidak akan terlepas dari ditanya “Akak, bila nak bagi kad?”..”Bila nak nikah..” dan yang mempunyai maksud seumpamanya. Penulis masih lagi tersenyum saat diajukan soalan- soalan sebegitu. Dua tiga menjak ini bertalu- talu pula. Iyalah kan...ramai sahabat handai yang membuat kenduri kahwin, dan ada pula yang menerima berita gembira atas kehadiran bayi penyeri rumahtangga.

Siapa tidak mempunyai keinginan untuk memiliki dan dimiliki (ayat ‘skema’ orang), tidak begitu?

Penulis melihat keadaan masih ‘bersendirian’ ini dari beberapa sudut yang positif. Antaranya ialah:

1-Masa makan di kantin, restauran, kafetaria hatta di bilik kolej sekali pun lebih pantas kerana tidak perlu berborak- borak.

2-Jimat bil telefon. Agak-agak kalau dikumpulnya jumlah bil/ pre-paid yang digunakan, sudah boleh digunakan untuk belanja nikah.

3-Jimat duit belanja setiap bulan. Boleh menyimpan, menabung mahupun berbelanja sesuka hati tanpa perlu meminta pendapat pasangan terlebih dahulu.

4-Jadual harian yang bebas. Habis kuliah, boleh melepaskan penat dengan cara tersendri tanpa perlu memikirkan di mana mahu membawa buah hati tersayang makan, berjalan- jalan. Belum lagi pening kepala memikirkan “Baju apa nak pakai eh?’’.

Sekadar pendapat peribadi penulis sahaja. Namun penulis tumpang gembira dan mendoakan teman- teman yang telah menemui pasangan idaman kalbu masing- masing.

Penulis gembira dan bersyukur masih ada teman baik yang sudi berkongsi saat ketawa dan duka.

Suatu petikan ayat di dalam Surah An- Nur... Allah SWT ada menyebut bahawa “...lelaki yang baik untuk wanita yang baik...”. Penulis yakin bahawa Allah SWT mempunyai rancangan yang terbaik buat hamba- hambaNYA yang dikasihi. Penulis menanggap sedang diberi peluang untuk memperbaiki diri kerana pembinaan sebuah instituisi itu bukan setakat menyatakan AKU CINTA KAMU tetapi juga menguji kebijaksanaan hamba menjalankan amanah yang diberi.

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Astronaut: Simple Plan

Can anybody hear me?
Am I talking to myself?
My mind is running empty
In this search for someone else
Who doesn't look right through me.
It's all just static in my head
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted off
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
Can I please come down, cause I'm tired of drifting round and round
Can I please come down?

I'm deafened by the silence
Is it something that I've done?
I know that there are millions
I can't be the only one who's so disconnected
It's so different in my head.
Can anybody tell me why I'm lonely like a satellite?

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted off
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/simple-plan-lyrics/astronaut-lyrics.html ]
Can I please come down, cause I'm tired of drifting round and round

Can I please come down?

Now I lie awake and scream in the zero gravity
And it's starting to weigh down on me.
Let's abort this mission now
Can I please come down?

So tonight I'm calling all astronauts
all the lonely people that the world forgot
If you hear my voice come pick me up
Are you out there?
'Cause you're all I've got!

And tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
And I lost all signal when I lifted off
Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot

'Cause tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut
Sending SOS from this tiny box
To the lonely people that the world forgot
Are you out there?
'Cause you're all I've got!

Can I please come down?
'Cause I'm tired of drifting round and round.
Can I please come down? (x3)

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Allah Knows Best

Sunday, March 18, 2012

1408- 1433: 25 sudah...=)

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Tadi masa dalam kelas graphic design, Mr Asyraf tanya " Siapa ingat tahun hijrah dia lahir?''. Alhamdulillah dalam sijil kelahiran pendaftar hospital ada tuliskan sekali. 1408 Hijri. Jadi, kebiasaannya, saya akan meraikan ulangtahun kelahiran 2 kali setahun: Sekali masa umur hijah (4 Rabiul Awwal) dan lagi sekali masa umur tahun masihi (27 Oktober).

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Oh ya...
Hampir 25 tahun bernafas di muka bumi ini...
Sebanyak manakah yang telah aku sumbangkan...
Yang telah aku lakukan...

Dan...
Siapa bisa mengetahui...
Sampai bila kaki ini akan terus melangkah...

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Muhasabah diri agar menjadi insan yang lebih baik, lebih bertaqwa dari hari ke hari...
Insya Allah.

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Transformers...andai aku ini robot.

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

(Disclaimer: Inspired by Transformers)

Gambar Optimus Prime kat atas tu dah selamat saya selesaikan semalam. Assignment untuk kelas Certificate in Graphic Design. Need a lot of improvement still. Took me about 5 hours; 8pm- 12. Break sekejap untuk Solat Isya', ambil angin kat koridor.

Robot pun kena servis juga kan? Lama-lama guna, kalau dia penat, rosak. Tak berfungsi. Sama juga dengan kita. Tapi kita bukan robot. Kita ni manusia. Ada akal. Boleh fikir bila mana mahu berhenti sejenak andai penat melakukan tugas seharian. Ibadah. Tafakur. Zikir. Merehatkan minda menjana idea dan semangat baru.

Jom kita berusaha untuk menjadi insan yang lebih baik dan bertaqwa...

Insya Allah =)

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Journal 1

Bismillahirahirahmanirahim...

Yesterday, when the course instructor, Dr Syed Alwi instructed us to write a journal as part of the course (Spiritual Dimensions of Educational Psychology) requirement, I remembered that my English teacher during my primary school days, Auntie Julie, used to made us to write "Dear Diary...". Another fun way of writing essays I guess. I just hope that particular book is still lying around somewhere in the house. Of course...this journal writing would be surely different than I used to write those days. Hopefully, I could see the mature side of me, improve myself for a better future, Insya Allah.

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Mrs Weird Cat @Bangi

This morning, on my way to meet my friend at the IIUM.FM studio, met a beautiful black kitten. Playing around happily by its own. I stopped and sat on the nearby kerb. While playing with the cute creature, a "makcik cleaner" (the cleaning lady) passed by and had a small chat with her. One of the thing that she told me was that sometimes, she would saw some people kicked those innocent beings. How could they have the heart?

Growing up in a 'cat-loving-family', I was always 'trained' and taught to be kind toward cats. Since our first house back in Kampung Baru, Kuala Lumpur until our current residency in Bangi, Selangor we own countless number of cats. Most of them just make their way in as part of our 'family member'. Only a few of them we picked up from the roadsides and some other places.

There a times when I have to sacrifice my meals just to ensure that the cats have had theirs before having my own a bit late. They just know how to make 'pity-face' (muka kesian) and beg for foods.

The positive value: Never gave up until you get what you want.


Saturday, February 4, 2012

Projek memasak tengah malam: Shortbread cookie.

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Alhamdulillah baru sahaja siap baking biskut Shortbread. Lebih kurang macam butter cookie la tapi tanpa telur. Berperang kat dapur hampir 2 jam juga la tadi (11pm-1am : plus masa mengemas). ALang-alang dah nak balik UIA minggu depan, maka buat la sekali 'stok' untuk dibawa bersama. Lebih jimat, terjamin kebersihan dan sihat. Cuba tengok paket biskut yang ada. Bahan-bahan dia berjela-jela. I bet half of it are preservatives. Baiklah sidang pembaca yang dihormati sekalian, tanpa membebel dengan lebih lama, mari kita lihat proses pembuatan biskut saya ini.

Bahan-bahan yang di perlukan:

-175 gram butter
-250 gram tepung gandum
-75 gram gula halus
-1 sudu teh garam

Cara- caranya (macam abah selalu cakap):

1- Kacau gula dengan butter hingga kembang. Ini penting.

2- Tambahkan tepung bersama garam. Kacau lagi hingga sebati.

3- Uli dan terus uli. Eh. Sampai agak licin permukaan doh tersebut.

4- Gelek dan terap guna acuan yang anda suka. Di sini saya gunakan acuan teddybear MrBean yang ada.

5- Susun mereka beramai-ramai di atas dulang pembakar. Walaupun biskut ini tidak berkembang seperti kebanyakan biskut- biskut lain, pastikan ada sedikit ruang antara bisut- biskut anda untuk pembakan dan pengudaraan yang lebih baik. Di peringkat ini juga, anda boleh menghias biskut mengikut kreativiti tersendiri (tambah hiasan cip coklat, gula yang berwarna-warni, kacang dan sebagainya).

6- Bakar di dalam microwave oven (pre-heat dahulu yea dengan suhu setinggi 180 darjah) selama lebih kurang 20 minit. Siap. Selamat menjamu selera.


Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Recipe: Humus

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

Yesterday, I tried to made Hummus, a famous Arab side dish. You can either eat it with pita bread or eat it on its own. If you want to try it, here's the recipe to share:

The ingredients needed are:

1- 500gm of chickpeas. Soak it for about 12 hours. The best time is actually 24 hours. You may also use canned chickpeas.

2. 2-3 cloves of garlic. Slice them.

3. About 1/4 cups of lemon juice.

4. 1/4 cups of tahina or sesame paste. You can get it at shops that sell Arab food condiments and ingredients.

5. Dash of salt.

The methods:

1-Cook the chickpeas until tender for about 1 hour.

2- Combine it with with other ingredients in a blender and blend until smooth.

The end product...Humus. You may add olives with olive oil. Or sprinkle it with some paprika. In this recipe, I use chili flakes instead.

Enjoy it with a bismillah =)